Under the same magnificent pale blue cloud
Dauntlessly , I sit on the wet red stairs
No one would rather let their shirt or skirts get wet
But who cares ?
I feel the serenity of being wet in pants
Haha , yes the tranquility drives me in
Sidesplitting you think ?
The majestic rainbows appearing after the droopy rains faded
Just like how happiness comes after the sadness
But me ?
Haven't move on from my down-casting events of my life
I might have pink personality externally
But the insipid black soul in me never evanesce

Honestly my dear,
It's not you that I don't like
It's your fault that I nixed you
And it's neither mine
It's just the heart haven't ready to be touch again
The wound, the scratches doesn't seemed to let themselves bleeding over again
I've tried but failed in every attempt I gave
I'm sorry my dear
I'm just not ready to be somebody's partner ever again
I was drowning when I tried to pour my love and giving my heart
But he didn't save me even worst he left without any word
I'm swimming reaching the land on my own
It was supposed that guy should protect the lady but It didn't happened
I felt devastated
And for that , I discovered some rules in my life
To make me my self also do have priority
And you eventually ain't barring from my rules
I know in every again I wrote
I know you'd feel wretched or maybe abortive
Again , I can't escape from saying sorry

If I am given a druthers
I'd love to stay unaccompanied like now
I'm not playing those hard-to-get game
But I am me, maybe I am really hard to get
Only after what had happened in my life
So I beg this time , just please
No one come near to me
I'm a loner
I love being on my own
Yes I'm a lone wolf
I don't know how to be a good partner anymore
I lost that soul to people who actually never want to stay
Oftentimes I asked myself how did I do it
Never get boring of recalling the way I felt
But it never comes
It seems like hiding somewhere
Maybe it'll come out at the very right time
And I ,
Am waiting for the right time
And the right person to come in honorable way fighting to get me in his life

Cause free and easy-to-get things are aperiodically appreciated
So I'm no longer give my heart and feelings easily to everyone that comes
Because I know I don't deserve a temporary partner that come and go just like they wish to do so







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