Hi , hello everyone!

Hm I don't really have specific topic actually what to write today since I am in the bus heading back to my university now hahahaha . But the excitement that I feel right now really drives me here to say , okay I meant write something. Well having a new blog actually makes me addicted to keep writing eventhough nohing runs on my mind right now. So here we go to my really random thought :

1) I've been thinking on what am I going to do after finish my FIS here since pursuing MBBS *my dream profession since I was a kid* seems impossible with the economy right now . I don't get any money aids from anyone so .. I'm not gonna say byebye but almost to say byebye la haha . And, my back up plan is going to darul quran/any tahfiz school and memorizing the whole quran . Maybe thats my destinu actually . Of course there are few of my friends said to me "You're smarr but you cannot pursue your dreams just because of money problem" . Najib, you ae the one that responsible later in akhirah if peoples like me are facing the same fate . How you manage the economy would be the reason why our parents couldn't afford us to continue study so , in front of Allah we'll claimed. Urgh whatever ! My dad said we are living for akhirah, we need to collect as much as we can the assets for that very day  during this interval that won't last longer. So, I agree . And now I know , my fate is in god's hand . If he choose me to be one of the tahfizah , there I go :)

2) Lately I've been in some frustrating situations where people keep upsetting me in ways that I never thought it'd be ! For example : they don't respect me . I honestly I hate people that do or say something without manners. Islam taught us akhlak *manners* , why peoples .. Why still not follow that 😞 Basic things also can't do . Basic things like using people's belonging without permission , blabla 😫 Too tired ah to mention them all . Arghh ~

3).  Hm. Okay this one I don't know how to start . Basically I just wonder how can people easily attach to me easily by just whatsapping me ? Is it because of my words or the way I treat them ? I just treated them like how I want myself to be treated . Don't they know that I actually a quiet,lame,boring snd dull person in real ? Hahahaha . I think I am . If you wanna go out with me , don't bring friend becsuse you won't see my 'talkative' side because I actually don't know how to get along with much peoples around me . I don't know how to join the conversation coz I honestly a romantic person . What I mean here is I prefer go out alone or with ONLY one friend because I really HATE CROWD . Okay , back to the main thing I wrote which is attachment. Okay then , when they make a move to actually knows me even deeper , I gave them chance. But just with few of them only that I really really really got attached . Usually with the one that whatsapp me from the moment I opened my eyes until closed back again. When I really got attached , I mesnt heart-to-heart attachment, I really take time to move on . If I only need few days or a month then actually that's mean I don't really have heart-to-heart attachment but ,  the affection they gave to me that makes me meroyan tak tentu pasal. I need YEARS to move on in real . YEARS . Okay so far there was only two hahaha . I really really really really really loved them . But then , well you know 💔 The reason why I used to not believed the word bestfriend. When they backstabbing you then .. How can you believe there is people that you csn really trust ? But it was before . After 6 years live in that perspections ,Allah sent me good peoples in my life to actually prove that I was wrong. Maybe she's not the one .I feel bad when I once made a bad duas for her then it was really happening 😂 And the second person is my.. Hahaha you know hahaha . I took more than 2 years to fully move on though 😅

4) I just wondering how life would be if we don't have obstacles.. Does it feels like this world is a paradise ? Or .. How ? When we were in problems we wished to not have one . But what would we say if god really don't want to give us plenty of ''life-test" ? Okay I mean even a single problem. We never stop having problem right 🤔 If not with other people then with our own self . For example right now I have problem with my skin face 💁🏻 I want to get a flawless skin like babies do . Okay whatever . That's for instance . Hahaha .

5) Sometimes I feel like I wanna ask god to give me power to actually put peoples in my shoes so we can really share the problem or maybe let them feel whatever I feel . Watch them how they react . I am a type of person which always keep everything inside my heart even if I really want them to know how uncomfortable am I with whatever they're doing . But the problem is I afraid to say it to them . Advising ? Hmmm jauh lahai . Writing is one way for me to relesse them out . So sometimes I feel like putting them in whatever feelings that come to me. Huh 😅

Hm okay maybe that's all for today hahaha . Sakit mata kakak ni baca kecik NAMATEYY tulissn ni haaaaaaaaa ~ kbyeee




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