Again , I'm sitting on the same bench
Heading to the same building
Staring at the same flower pot
Gazing at the same flower color
But this time, it grows on different branch
This is not the scenery that I love
Neither the wind that blows on my body
I wonder why don't it blows away the story of us
Take away the pain that I've been held for such a long time
Or replace this feeling on you to let you know this feelings
I've no idea why this longing stupid feeling keep haunting me but not you
I know my heart is finding
Maybe finding something to stream its role
Yes , true
I'm finding
I'm finding someone exactly like you
Appears perfectly in all of the imperfections
Just like how were you to me back then
I wonder if he is even exist
But I afraid
I afraid If he is ever come and leave me just like how you did
When I bravely gave you all me
And the  my trust worth gone with the heart that I thought I owned it
This time , I won't let you in again
I won't beg you to come back
But ,
I beg don't ever you hurt her
Just like how you hurt me when you want her
Heart isn't thing that you should be play with
It's fragile and sensitive where people keep untold things inside
Even if it's bleeding or scratched no one could ever see
Just like mine , scratched and bleeding
I could've just die but it was only happened virtually
Where I can feel it but cannot see it with my naked eyes
I know the pain does exist but it is so indescribable
Nobody could understand the inner torment of mine
After what had happened between us
I again opened the wound that I've had before
The insane goodbye that the 'good' never appears in our byes
I could see the 'hell' in our first hello
I wish the word doesnt exist so I wont feel agony
But there must be reasons why we met

Words after words I write to relieve the anguishing of losing
You know sentence could be differs in structure
But in the end , they still bring the same meaning
They still can't describe the internal violent storm inside me
I'm dying and arise and dying and arise and it repeatedly happened in me
I can't really feel me after knowing you
And I could never believe nor imagine
That you are the one who take my soul away from my body
Fly as high as it can
Leaving my still-alive-body alone

So now i would like to ask you
Would you do me a favor ?
Would you love her like how I loved you ?
Would you ?


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