Hi,

I'm very emotional at the moment i'm writing this. Sorry. I couldn't stop crying right now because something bothering me. Like literally something happened and it is so tearing me up. Fucked me up. I'm so done playing with all these bullshits. I'm getting tired. I'm tired of faking everything. I'm tired of being okay when I'm not. I'm tired of telling myself to do things that my heart deny. It kills me slowly. How do i get rid of all these again?

If I could scream out as loud as i could i would. I'm sorry. It's been a while since i've stop writing it. I don't tell because I afraid something will change. I don't want to make any move anymore. I've had enough.

I'm sorry that my way of life is totally different from you all. I'm sorry that what I hold isn't mutual with what you all hold. I'm sorry that I believe you all will change one day but you all never want. I'm sorry that I lower down my ego because I wanna see how you all changes. I'm sorry that I have to give us up. I'm sorry that I have given almost all of me to see you all alive again. I'm sorry that I see you all never respect me as a woman with feelings. I'm sorry that I used to think that we are all the same persons. I'm sorry that I thought we have mutual understanding and feelings. I'm sorry that I believed in a wrong things about you all. I'm sorry that I don't wanna walk with you all anymore. I'll stop here. If you all think that I am important, turn around and take me back in the way how it should be. I'll be waiting for you all at the point where I decided to stop. If someone else comes and pick myself up, I'm sorry that you all should feel that you all are late. Don't regret for losing a friend like me :')

I tried to pick up your broken pieces but you destroyed mine; I couldn't bear anymore. I've been broken enough and you made it even worst. I'm sorry. Trusting isn't a game anymore. I'm sorry guys. I've had enough and all the best to everyone of you

Sincerely,
Your broken friend

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